blog barf

blog barf- extremely random unedited thoughts from my head thrown into a blog post
    
i am back. no guarantees that i will be back for long, but for a little while i am back.
my life has consisted of school, wedding plans, work, friends, and cleaning (living on your own is hard work).  this semester has been so different than any other semester.  i dont have any of by best friends down the hall (for the first time in 2 years).  i dont even have them close.  i am learning that as you get older friendships take more and more effort.  its not a bad thing, just that we have less time to see each other and a greater longing to spend time together leaving us with two options: 1) find time and be intentional with each other (never had to schedule my friends before) OR 2) just stop seeing each other all together... that is NOT an option.  
things are different, that means change. i have never been a fan of change. i am learning that the Lord uses change in our lives to grow us into people who reflect His character more and more each changing day and as much as i dislike change, i want to know His character more.  i want Him to teach and lead and grow me. i think that is going to be a theme of my year as i continue to experience big HUGE life changes in the next 5 months.  so here i am ready and so excited to embrace CHANGE.  
i wont leave you with more scattered thoughts, although i know there are some in my head... dont worry they will come on the next blog barf day.